Where did it start this nightmare of mine
It seems to have crept
in uninvited for sure
First in the pit of the
stomach a pain so tight
Depressions not about
feelin' sad, it's a disease
I walk through the
trees and birds to lift my mood
But upon my return the
gloomy monster's still there
Follows me like a storm
cloud I just cannot shake
Determined to eat me
one piece at a time, why me?
How do you ask for help
when you don't understand
Well I don't know the
reply comes back, take some pills
They wont cure you but
you'll feel better, happier
I don't want to feel
happier, I want to feel well
Family think I'm
awkward my moods unpredictable
The strain of working
and taking care of them
New clothes new car,
new problem same complaint
Money won't fix my
situation, can't you simply listen
Need you to look at
this, make more money, more profit
Take more work on, why
haven't you done that yet
Can't think any more,
can it hurt any less
Won't you leave me
alone to decrease my stress
Something about to
break, I think it'll be me
sliding down a slope,
nothing to grab hold of
That's it now, I've had
enough, no more to give
Hearts pumping strong,
breathing shallow, gone dizzy
No work today just a
doctor to call, worried face staring at me
Possible heart attack,
he needs rest, and release from the stress
You are one step from
Hospital, funny I thought it was 10 miles
He must know how to
travel by thought, I wish that I could do that
Two weeks later bright
eyes and bouncing along
Could it be be that my
heart is so strong
Keep going to the place
that made my heart race
Making the money in the
hope of some honey
But my moods they still
swing, got no patience
Shout and scream, it's
not helping I know
DON'T TALK BACK Just
let me vent steam!
Not sure I can cope, I
thought I was past this
Now I am alone and
walking the streets
But no home to go to,
no place by the fire
It's all changed now,
we'll take care of you now
Work through your
problems one step at a time
We think it's mental
illness, depression and stress
Keep you here for now,
you know, for the best
How can I be mentally
ill? now I'm not so sure
Wouldn't I notice, I
thought I was ok?
Roll time backwards,
where did I go wrong
What's the symptoms,
the name of this trap
Don't want drugs to
dull the pain, I need control
Where did I go wrong,
was it me all along?
Paint some pictures,
sit with the others, just like you
I'm not so sure that I
fit in with this crew
My art so plain,
displayed quite in shame
Who is that guy, won't
you tell me your name
I like what you've
done, so bright and talented
Hey yours is good, you
sure got some promise
Me are you kidding? Are
you being so honest?
His work is so cool,
her's a dream come to life
Then I made a new
friend, and then another
One by one, new faces,
new pictures hanging there
Fantasies come to life,
on canvas and paper
Charcoal smears
swooping so full of beauty
There's a light in my
life now, some passion and hope
Some people who have
been there in the dark tunnel
Who know how hard it
has been to explain
To loved ones that you
needed a hand to recover
A person to talk and
understand, mostly listen
How hard mental illness
is to carry and to beat
Who knows that under
the cloak a good heart can beat
A spirit can rise
again, be creative and shine
Now I see others who
make the hard journey
Who start to figure how
to put the pieces together
With such helpful
staff, many new friends, fun times
We start to realise
that we have worth and esteem
A new life, bright new
spirit, new hope and a chance
To be part of society
and rebuild broken bridges
Regroup now, always
getting stronger, like an army
Doing things we never
thought we could do again
The people who help us,
so impassioned and strong
Always giving, never
judging, what is right, who is wrong
Each one now a friend
so dear and so loving
They should get medals,
what they do for so little
My rhyme hurts to write
the words all so new
for memories of things
that used to be true
now in the past, I have
moved on down
the journey of life so
amazing, thanks everyone
For paid staff,
volunteers and friends at Rethink
Who help to give us
back our lives and new choices
Without whom the path
would be impassable
Please talk about
Mental Health, but mainly JUST LISTEN!
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